surprised @ my own emotions?
i was surprised at how fast my tone fell.
and even more,
on how i changed it to a total neutral tone.
i should have already known that words from you guys dun mean anything. only the actual actions are.
a good fren of mine, or i say my psuedo. and he’s definitely going to read this! lol.
we were commenting on how we thought of each other. and this was what he said!:
“i always thought tt u r this cool cucumber who keeps things to urself most of the time“, and
“yet a very factual person and pretty much down to earth wif things“, AND, the sweetest thing that a friend could say,
“but no matter wat, i still love u the way u r lah” (’lah’ was cancelled cuz it makes the sentence insincere,lol!)
seriously, i wasnt upset about this, instead, of all emotions that i could ’summon’, i’m pretty proud of myself.
on a side note, i love all my friends, and everyone i hang out with. it’s because i love you guys as who you are, that i hang out with you. i admit that sometimes i do criticise some of you, though not most of you, but that’s because i love and care for you guys, and i accept that part of all of you.
i am not one of those who hangs out with you and go ard tellin people that i dun like you. but on the front, tellsĀ you how much i adore the way to do things, or praise you, like as if i treat you as a friend
even though i’m VERY young. but my experiences and also my media consumption(hehe) have taught me that, reliant on emotions will just make you fall deeper.
of cuz i get upset on things, but moving on is inevitable and necessity.
who is there to save myself, except me?
